My Wekend

Loads of slacking with loads of people. Too lazy to write it down...

Being Yourself...

A conversation I had with a friend last night really left me thinking. The topic was about "being yourself". I agree with what she said. No one can truly "be themself". Everyone's personality, way of thinking, lifestyle, dressing, etc, is influenced in one way or another by other people. They are not born like that. But the term "not being yourself" can also be applied to individuals who are influenced by other people but they are not liking it, but allowing themselves get influenced and hence, they are not "being themselves". So the advice "be yourself" can be given to SOME people while others, it just can't be applied. So the next time I wanna say "be yourself" to someone, I guess I would rephrase it to, "do whatever makes you happy".

PS. I wanna take a poll for everyone who visits this site and actually knows me. Do you think I'm such a happy person. Think about it and comment on it in my tagboard.
Cheers...

The Late Call

Called you just now to ask how you've been.
You picked up the phone and said hello.
I heard the side of you I've never seen.
I think you're crying, why is this so?

Of course you won't tell me what's wrong.
You won't give me a clue.
We haven't known each other that long.
I'm probably nobody to you.

I hope the cry you had was nothing serious.
Please don't do anything stupid.
The short phonecall we had left me curious.
Now I can't sleep, I'm worried.

Just forget about what you read here.
Please just forget the rhyme.
Just hope you'd cheer up dear.
I'm sorry I called at the wrong time...

Your Captain Jack Sparrow
You're not always clear when you say something, but
you are trustworthy.


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congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud

The Wedding

What a dream I had last night. I dreamt about going to a wedding. Guess who's wedding it was? It was Faza's & Ratna's wedding! It was beautiful. They wore the almost the same kind of baju kurung they wore at the last Hari Raya outing. Except the colour was white. They were a gorgeous couple. I cried at their wedding. Damn, so touching. Then the was like this outing after the wedding where we drove around. Then we slacked somewhere and drank. I got drunk on vodka. Could you get dunk in your sleep? Well you sure could.
I can't remember most of my dream, but the wedding was etched in my mind. But I think the real wedding's gonna be better. I ill try not to cry like a baby then. But I would really hope for an outing after the wedding, slack and drink... (n_n)

Dinner With Nadia

Guess what i did yesterday? I met nadia!!! But it's all good. I won't fall for her again. I won't get cheated again. All we did was have dinner, slacked for a while outside KFC Tampines near the big RAIders sign. After that, we went to Pentagon to slack with the Pentagoons. We're just friends now. In fact, thats the way I like it. Nothing more than that.

Back in Pentagon, our plan of being the Singapore Jackass is on the way. We had "practice" last night. We pasted paper tape on parts of our body with hair and give it a violent jerk. I did it on my legs, eyelash and eyebrow. Ajun did it on his legs, back of his neck and his pubic region. Some of the others just did it on their legs. I also painted smiley faces with some red spray paint on my legs and toenail. Iz did it on his tummy. Did you know that spray paint can be peeled off by paper tape. But I guess masking tape is better. It was loads of fun. We're planning on getting a chalet where we're gonna some more stupid shit on camera.

Last Saturday was fun. Hung out with Rai and Fahrul. You can read all about it at Rai's blog. Gotta go to class now.

In the rain

Lots of cars, bus and lorries.
Lots of scars from lots of sorries.

Lots of raindrops in the rain.
Lots of teardrops from the pain.

Another day of empty mailbox,
Another unanswered call.
Another whiskey on the rocks,
Another empty hall...

Np vs. SP (3-2)

Did almost the same shit till the end of shool where me & Da Club wnt towath a soccer match at the NP stadium. It was NP vs. SP where NP popped open a mean can of whoopass. The score at the final whistle was 3 - 2. Victory to Np.

After that, we went to Al-Ameen, as usual. But I left early. around 8:30 to meet YaYa for a job interview at BK. Spent a bloody log time to find a parking lot. It' a concrete jungle in the CBD. I got the job but I decided not to take it cos the pay suck with long working hours, plus, I needed a Typhoid injection. No way am I gonna take that jab. Can't believe I still have the phobia for injections after all these years. I'm such a pussy.

Muahaha!!!

Happy Children's day everyone

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Project day again. A day of nothing to do. Woke up around 8 then sleepily followed my grandmama to the market. Went back home and back to sleep all the way till 12. Showered, changed & off to school for more slacking. Slacked a while at the com lab with Pao. Now at Club 51 slacking with Janggoat, Fazli, Dell & Pao. More thugz on the way. Btw, I heard Sham De'Mann's in the hospital cos his youngest brother's in the ICU. Hope's everything's alright...

You're an elitist. You know you're stuff, but be a
little more accepting.

Back To Normal!

Everything is back to normal!!! Woohoo!!!

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Change Of Blog

I screwed up my blog big time. I guess this new one will do.

Ambience By The Water

Yesteday I spend my whole day with Faza & Ratna. What a great day we had. First I went to Faza's house at around 11. I was supposed to go to school but I was just too lazy. I slacked at Faza's house surfing the internet, checking my mail, playing realthugz and listening to music. Then after that we fetched Ratna & headed to NYP to pick-up her diploma. We had our lunch of McDonald's there and Ratna gave me a McDonald's sticker from her burger. The Sticker went very well on my helmet. cool. After NYP, we went to the beach to chill. upon reaching the 7-eleven in East Coast, a "mat" came up to me and asked if he could borrow my helmet for a while to fetch someone in Siglap and gave me his IC as a sign of trust. I passed him my Helmet and told him to find me by the beach when he's back. After that, Faza Ratna & me went to beach and slacked till around 6 and then we sent Ratna to school. While waiting for Ratna to end class, Faza brought me to one of the most peaceful spots I ever went to. It's in Kallang facing the river. It was so nice sitting there and reminiscing the times we spent in secondary school.
After Ratna finished school we sent her back riding through the ECP. I think the ECP is one of the most scenic roads in Singapore, don't you think? We spent Ratna and spent the rest of the night under Faza's block slacking with Firdaus.
I'm gonna miss Faza when he's off to serve the friggin' National Service. Sigh...

the button machine is on the way...(n_n )

Testing 1 2 3

School was very slacky last Friday, as most Friday's were. Watched Da Mte Boys train & slacked with Azrul & Dalilah. Dalilah looks a lot like Ratna xcept that she's smaller built & she smokes. After that went slacking at Al-Ameen(Bukit Timah) wit da boys till like 11+.
Had quite a slacky day yesteday n the day before. Me n da gang (namely Faza, Fahrul & me) had a slumber party!!! Actually it was just kinda overnighting at my place cos my dad's not at home (my dad went to a vespa pageant in Malacca which I wanted to follow but unable cos I'm not experinced enuff to ride to Malacca n I can't "tumpang" my dad cos he's friend is already "tumpanging" him, hahaha). Went to school Saturday morning but got soaked wet. Been raining cats & dogs these past few days. After chillin' in school with da MTE boys, went to Suhayl's birthday feast at his house & slacked with the Pentagoons a lil. Emediately after that joined Faza & Fir at the b'ball court to sk8. Had a quick pitstopat Faza's crib & went to my crib to chill till around 2. We went to Al-Ameen(Tampines) & slacked till 4. It was still raining heavily then. Went back to my crib & watched '10 Things I Hate About You'. Wanted to watch 'The Fight Club' after that, but we were too sleepy.
Faza went home around 8 to send ratna to work, she was late for work & had Faza bail her out. Fahrul & me woke up at around 12:30 and had brunch of nasi lemak. Went downsatirs for some smokes and chilled with Nazrul. After that slacked at Fahrul place & went to sk8 at the B'ball court soon after. We skated with Shahid's crew, boy did we got burned by them & they were only like 14 - 15 yrs old. Goddammit. Had fun skating the rest of the night with Faza, Kenji, Fir, Fahrul & Wan. can't wait till next weekend.

At Last

Dear friend
It's you I love
It's you I cherish
From all above

Oh friend
Don't go away
I will stop farting
If you promise to stay

(n_n )

had a very hostile exchange of words with Steph last Saturday. I felt kinda guilty bout wat I said. Maybe my anger just got the best of me. Well, whatever.
Got quite tipsy at the gig at esplanade. It was a Bushmen concert. They were playing for quit a long time. They ended their set playing Monkey Man. But I guess it was The Specials version, not Toots & The Maytals. But it was great anyways. Suhana, was there skanking near me, she's very cute. I wanted to talk to her at the gig at NUS but I didn't have the guts to. All that came up from my courage was a smile while we were skanking and an e-mail introducing myself. Hope she replies.
Going to meet Nizar later at Lisboa and slack. Till then, cheers...¢¼

doing preetty much of nohing these days. lot's of sk8ing n slacking. my schoolmates r into workouts nowadays. maybe i'll join them. i need the exercise.
in near the school pool rite now surfin' with hisham's laptop while the guys r workin' out . lazy to join them today. going drinking with my schoolmates later tonight at east coast. my most favourite thing to do.
cheers!

It's been a week since my so-called birthday chalet & I'm still pondering about it & how it changed my percpective of the people I thought I knew. How greed, selfishness & lust conquers the best of someone. The best times I had at the chalet was time I spent alone. And the times spent in that dreadful weekend was time spent at BayBeats. I never regretted leaving the chalet for BayBeats though I regret not spending time with my good companion whose now in Dubai. Wonder if I'd ever see her again. That weekend shall remain etched in my mind for a while. Till the next birthday.....

Back in school yesterday. Pretty hilarious watching the antics of freshies. I was like them 3 years ago, excited & clueless. Hahaha!
Skipped DCIS halfway yesterday and hung out with Steph, Britta and Azny at Clementi McDonald's playing Daidee. Azny went off halfway to go shopping with her friends at beach rd. After that we went over to Steph's place and hang listening to music. Reached home around 9 and watched TV. (the girl on yesterday's Smallville was georgeos!!!) Faizal came over asking for some bolts n nuts for his bike. His back mudguard was loose.

In school rite now wasting time in DCIS lab. Going sk8ing later at 6 with Firdaus. We're gonna play our newly built funbox. Yipeee!
Going off for some "fresh air" now.
C'ya

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What a b'day it's gonna be. I dread the coming day. Sigh. Really hope I can get to see BayBeats and spend the day there with all my good friends. Guess That's not gonna happen due to the chalet coming up. Can't blame Steph though cause it's not her fault the chalet dates fall on BayBeats. I really hope I get to spend my b'day with all my good friends. But I'm afraid I'll be pretty shagged spending the days at the chalet to celebrate my b'day...

The gig yesterday was great. Had a lot of nice memories at The Subtation Garden. I attended my first ever gig there. The bands that was worth watching yesterday was eight ball, Plain Sunset, 59 mins & Fishtank. But ne thing that suck bout the gig was the bloody skinheads creating trouble and also I was quite pissed with them meddling my bike. All in all, the gig was fun.

I think I'm going through this emotional roller coaster once again. Feeling lonely and depressed. Need a bloody drink. Though I deny and condemn relationships, I long to have a significant other. But I guess that's just not possible...

Went to Rafizah's older brother's wedding. Quite a lively occasion. Spent quite a nice time with old secondary friends. Went to play CS after that. Great fun indeed. Long time since i kicked ass. Hahaha! Reached home around 7, sat for a while for like 15 mins and went out skateboarding with Kenji an Tree Garden (Ngee Ann Park). We were joined by Fahrul and Firdaus there. I was crap! It's been 6 months since I skated and I suck! Slacked at &-eleven at around 10+ and went home. Whew...

Spent almost the whole day in school yesterday supposedly doing the project, but ended up surfing the net and downloading stuff. Went home around 5, ate, took a nap and met Fahrul around 7:30. Hung out with Farah, bumped into Faza and Ratna at Sogo. They were on their way to Fad's friend's BBQ. They asked if I'm coming along. Too darn lazy. Then we met a girl that Fahrul got to know. Beautiful girl but she brought "gangster/mat" friends with her. Then hung out under Farah under her block. Reached home at 10:30, just in time for Smallville. What a boring life I have. Sigh...

Did pretty much of nothing lately. Slacked by the beach most of the time. Attended Ginny's birthday BBQ last Saturday. It was quite nice, Got to hang out with the BioTech crew again. It's been a while. Spent the rest of the night slaching and eventually sleeping at A-Fad's place with Anuar.

Went to the gig at The Substation with Hajar but spent most of the time there with Ali and Khadijah. Khadijah is sooooo damn cute! I wanna get to know her more, maybe go out with her or something. But I think Ali's interested in her also. So I'm backing off. Also, I think she's like 15. Too darn young for me.

That's all for today I guess. Cheers!

Entry ni akan saya buat dalam bahasa Melayu kerana saya tak ada kerja. Hari-hari hidup saya melepak. Apa nak jadi dengan saya. Sekarang saya tengah lepak kat Atrium kat sekolah. Selamat!!!

Aaargh!!! My computer monitor is not working. I have to use the school computer for now. I wonder when when I can save enough money to get a new monitor. I still have my friggin' bills to pay.

On a serious note, I found out that my good friend Fahmi has liver damage. Now I'm depressed again...

done a shitload of stuff. too lazy to write it down. beats the purpose of having a blog innit?
let's just write bout today.
i basically slacked the whole day cos school's cancelled bcos of the SARS thing.
slcked at faza's place, slacked under my block n slacked at home. wat more to write.
c'ya

I got a very sad news today. My good friend Alia is threatened with a fatal ailment. She has some king of bloodclot in the brain or something. Quite bad I guess. Why is life so cruel. I was lost for words when she called me a moment ago. Very depressed now... :(

I screwed up so badly! I lost someone I care about. Never lie to a friend even if you think it is best to not hurt her. Cos believe me, she would get hurt even more if she finds out. And worst, you may loose a true friend.

Here's what happened, last Tuesday and Wednesday, I hung out with Britta after school. I can't remember when was the last time we did that, we had a lot of fun. And on Friday, I promised to hang out with her again. Then, Steph asked me if I'm coming down to city hall to meet her and chill out, which is what we often do on Friday's. BUT, that morning, Steph and Britta had a little quarrel so Britta didn't want to meet Steph that day. Thus, Britta twisted the truth when asked if she's coming down. I ended up lying to Steph saying that I'm chilling with my schoolmate near school, cos I didn't want to complicate things between Britta and Steph. So, Britta and I ended up in town. We decided to go to town to avoid Steph cos Steph usually slacked in city hall. But Steph saw us there and she felt betrayed and backstabbed by us cos we lied to her. Till now things are just not the same anymore.

I'm sorry Steph. I never mean't to hurt you. All I wish is things go back the way they were. I already miss the great times we used to have. I can't stand to think that we won't be seeing each other again. Though the things I did is unforgivable, but all I have is these 5 words to offer you.

Hab dich lieb. I'm sorry...

Today is my mom's birthday. Bought her a pen cos I didn't know what else to get and she's always complaining that there's no pen in the house when she needs to write. Hope you like it mom. Love you lots. Also, a very happy birthday to Kenji's sister, Mayuka who's also celebrating her birthday today.

A good friend sent me an sms which said, "In life, god doesn't give u ppl u want but he gives ppl u need. To teach u, hurt u, love u & make u exactly the way u shld be." This is somewhat true. People around you do make a difference in your life, be it in little ways or a whole lot. The people around you also molds you to what you have become and will keep on affecting you till your dying day. It's a nice message actually. Quite deep. A very lovely gesture. But there's one problem, people around me make me exactly the way that I am, but I don't like the way I am...

I'm now in the computer lab in schhol. Fucken bored. Skipped class cos I didn't do an assigment and I'm lazy to hear my lecturer nag. So here I am in the computer lab chatting with my friend through the msn mssenger . But, she's just beside me. So So Bored. But then again, what's new...

Strange how life goes innit? Like how you love being alone yet it's you feel so empty and it's killing you. Like how you love having company around you yet, you feel so bored with the company that you wished that you could just die. Sigh...

Today started out okay. Had my PQS exam in the morning. Screwed that one up for sure. After the exam, some of us slacked at Al-Ameen Coffeeshop for a few hours. The weather, raining cats and dogs, was perfect for slacking at a coffeeshop and having a refreshing tete-a-tete among buddies. After that, I met Steph at City Hall. Really glad to see her. Had a some drinks, whigh was the highpoint of today, and slacked at the tunnel between Memo and The Esplanade. I was feeling dead bored by then slacking with Steph and her skinhead friends. So, I decide to take a walk along The Esplanade. Started messaging Rafizah and complaining to her about hopeless life. Hope I didn't bore her with it. The rest of the day was such a bore that I don't bother to type it down.....

This is week is my study week, so there's no school. I've studied only a bit and still don't know most stuff. I'm screwed.
Yesterday Maghrib n the gang went to watch Daredevil yesterday. I studied a bit in school and didn't join them cos I ain't got no dough. Halfway through studying, Alia called me and we chatted. It's been a while since I slacked with her.
After studying, Pau and me slacked at Adam Coffeeshop. Talked about his NS days n stuff.
At night, Steph called me. She was in a mess. I managed to cheer her up and we going shopping and drinking today.
I'm still at home and I'm not sure wether I should go school or not. We'll see.
C'ya

I had a lot to write since Valentine's day. But it's all in my written journal. If you really wanna know, just ask me. I'll tell you about my valentine's day. It basically sucked.
Let's see, what happened in my life recently. I got my freakin' license!!! I can finally ride my vespa. Yesterday, my dad added my name to his vespa's insurance. I'd probably be able to ride my bike around next week. But there's a downfall to all this. NO WEEKEND BOOZIN'!
So remeber kids, when you drink don't ride. HAHAHA!
Cheers! i hope..

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At Last

Dear friend
It's you I love
It's you I cherish
From all above

Oh friend
Don't go away
I will stop farting
If you promise to stay
[ArseMee]

I'm at the shool computer lab. Skipping my lecture, listening to sweet sounds of Hepcat and writing this shit.
Yesterday was a lazy day till around 4:30pm. Woke up at 2pm, had lunch, checked my e-mail when suddenly my friend Sutan gave me a call asking if I wanted to make money. I asked how and he told me to go down to SATS catering centre. Huh?! That's my old workplace I told him. Thinking I would work part time that day for the same stupid company, but I was wrong. It's a different contractor company. Better I think and the job's slackier. Anyway, till then. Actually I got more to say but I don't seem to remember what. Bleugh!
Cheers!

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Played soccer last friday. Damn, it's been a longtime since my body actually exercise and it felt damn good. After that me & my soccer buddies went for a very refreshing swim before having a hearty lunch at Al-Ameen. Great day last Friday was meeting old friends and catching up. I guess I'm gonna do that every fortnight from now on.
Saturday was almost like every other Saturday. Drinking, getting high and got home slept. Almost like other Saturdays cept i done those things with old buddies and catching up with them drinking by the esplanade. They played latin jazz at the esplanade that day which adds to the nice mood of being at the esplanade at night.
Sunday, I hung out at my best friend's place from mid day to night. Catching up. Later that night, watched his uncle trying to repair his bike but to no avail. He's gonna sell his bike now.
I guess last weekend I did a lot of catching up with old friends. Hope to do a lot more though. Till then. Cheers!

She came to the gig today. She never notices me. She probably don't even remember me. All I am to her is just that I am her ex's friend. She is so cute. Why am I obsessed with someone who probably doesn't remember my name? I wanna talk to her but i don't have the guts to. I guess being lonely is just fine with me.

Feeling very depressed and lonely. Though I may put up a happy face, but inside grey and sorrowful.Though I have lots of friends, I always succumb to loneliness.
Take me away...

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